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Mood swing Saturday
Sep. 20th, 2003 10:18 pmWell, it's a lovely Saturday, we once again have power, and I really have nothing to do. Considered going out for the sake of going out, but my common sense reminded me that it's been quite a while since I've had a free afternoon to work on fanfic. So I pulled out some of my old stuff and took a look at it. Then I winced and went out to run some errands. Now it's the evening, and I'm back to scratching my head over stuff.
BTW: All crossover writers should check out recent writing rants by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sage_theory and fikgirl post haste. I must applaud these two.
( Fanfic Rewrite Ramblings - The Key and the Sword )
On the general fanfic front, I think I've seriously lost my ability to write lately. No, really; 2003 is going down as my Least Productive Year Ever with regards to fanfic writing. Geez, even my fourth semester of college (aka the Semester Mandi Went Crazy) still yielded more than I've churned out in the last 9 months. What do I have to show for this year?
In the Waiting.
And that's about it.
I'm starting to get intimidated by the ease that my online and RL friends are having as they churn out epics and drabbles and vignettes by the dozen - and I'm sitting here staring at a piece that's been on hold for months. It's starting to seriously disturb me. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I just sit down and write the ideas that are in my head? No one else is having this kind of trouble! And while they're churning out fic by the barrel, I'm sitting here with a blank slate trying not to let it get to me. I should be able to do this. It shouldn't be a chore.
I've been writing for years - not professionally, but I'm still writing, and I'd like to think I've grown as a writer. Having said that, you'd think that fic writing should be less of a chore. I should be able to write simple, self-contained stories, not these freaking epics that spin out of my control. I should be able to write! This is pissing me off!
And you know what else is driving me nuts? My shoulder. After a few weeks of not much discomfort, it's flared up with a vengeance - naturally, around the time I have the free time to write. Parental units, don't panic, I'm fine, I can treat it, I'm taking it easy. It's just annoying that it decides to start spasming when I need to use it. So unless I'm absolutely and completely fired up to write something, or on such a writing high that I cannot stop writing, the ache is just too distracting to write.
(pauses for a phone call)
On another note, I love my Mom. She and my stepdad are in California this week, and she insisted today that they visit the Jelly Belly factory. When he asked why, she said, "It's Mandi's favorite candy!" They're bringing me back a 2 lb. bag of Jelly Belly Flops.
I may not be inspired, but I won't be Jelly Belly-deprived for a while. :)
BTW: All crossover writers should check out recent writing rants by
sage_theory and fikgirl post haste. I must applaud these two.( Fanfic Rewrite Ramblings - The Key and the Sword )
On the general fanfic front, I think I've seriously lost my ability to write lately. No, really; 2003 is going down as my Least Productive Year Ever with regards to fanfic writing. Geez, even my fourth semester of college (aka the Semester Mandi Went Crazy) still yielded more than I've churned out in the last 9 months. What do I have to show for this year?
In the Waiting.
And that's about it.
I'm starting to get intimidated by the ease that my online and RL friends are having as they churn out epics and drabbles and vignettes by the dozen - and I'm sitting here staring at a piece that's been on hold for months. It's starting to seriously disturb me. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I just sit down and write the ideas that are in my head? No one else is having this kind of trouble! And while they're churning out fic by the barrel, I'm sitting here with a blank slate trying not to let it get to me. I should be able to do this. It shouldn't be a chore.
I've been writing for years - not professionally, but I'm still writing, and I'd like to think I've grown as a writer. Having said that, you'd think that fic writing should be less of a chore. I should be able to write simple, self-contained stories, not these freaking epics that spin out of my control. I should be able to write! This is pissing me off!
And you know what else is driving me nuts? My shoulder. After a few weeks of not much discomfort, it's flared up with a vengeance - naturally, around the time I have the free time to write. Parental units, don't panic, I'm fine, I can treat it, I'm taking it easy. It's just annoying that it decides to start spasming when I need to use it. So unless I'm absolutely and completely fired up to write something, or on such a writing high that I cannot stop writing, the ache is just too distracting to write.
(pauses for a phone call)
On another note, I love my Mom. She and my stepdad are in California this week, and she insisted today that they visit the Jelly Belly factory. When he asked why, she said, "It's Mandi's favorite candy!" They're bringing me back a 2 lb. bag of Jelly Belly Flops.
I may not be inspired, but I won't be Jelly Belly-deprived for a while. :)
